It feels such a long time ago that murmurings of nationwide school closures were about to hit. It seemed inevitable considering the same measures had been taken elsewhere in other countries ahead of the UK in terms of Covid-19 spread. The idea of schools closing seemed unbelievable and very daunting that something so fundamental to the fabric of our everyday, normal lives should take this turn.
At the same time, discussions at my place of work of possible office closure and home working for everyone who could, were going ahead. I already home work two days a week but that’s with the support of school taking care of two thirds of the working day and filling in a few hours elsewhere was manageable. The weight of pressure fell imminently, imagining how and when work would happen with #1, 2 and 3 at home all the time. What would my team think about how much work I was going to achieve? Would they think I was slacking off every day?
The fact that we were in the midst of a global pandemic and perhaps there may be some level of dispensation didn’t quite cross my mind at the time. We get paid to do a job on the understanding that in exchange we do that job and the guilt of not being able to do that job well because we all have to StayAtHome didn’t really sink in for a while. Of course I still want to do my job well but how I manage to do that now we are 12 weeks in, has changed shape. As has being realistic with myself on what can be reasonably achieved. And the pressure to work at the same level of productivity was entirely generated from my own sense of responsibility (because I get paid for it), and nothing to do with any pressure issued from my place of work who have been nothing less than supportive.
Trying to put any boundaries in place for homeschooling to work harmoniously alongside home working has been impossible. In the first few weeks, if I were on a work Zoom call, a child might realise that Mummy’s on a work call and slip away quietly. Or they might feel a bit curious and come and look at all my Team on screen, give a wave and slip away quietly. But quite quickly they became used to this intrusion on their daily home lives and showed less and less concern for the work zoom call. And clearly, giving instructions that if the door is closed, it means I’m on a call and DO NOT DISTURB had zero meaning. What they actually heard was ‘if the door is closed just open it and hover. If hovering doesn’t work then feel free to ask what alternative snacks can you have’. Because that’s basically the most frequently asked question of the day. Even though the jumbo sized treasure chest of snacks is right there on the kitchen counter. I recently had #1, 2 and 3 make an appearance during one half hour call, all asking for snacks.
So just from that, how well do you think my homeschooling charges respect my homeschooling authority? Firstly, understanding the work would be helpful. Luckily for me, #3 has video links to most of her lessons that give me a heads up before we attempt the actual work. Just on Friday, I was sat helping #2 with her Maths challenge and she decided that she wasn’t going to attempt one of the questions because it was too hard. Which was quite a relief for me too as I have to admit the answer didn’t come naturally to me either, so I’m going to quietly give it a go after I’ve written this just to prove a point to myself, and maybes to Husband who clearly does get it.
Speaking to other parents, homeschooling provision has varied for each of us. We are fortunate that all KS2 children in our school has access to a school iPad. Slightly controversial decision at the time of launch but the benefits of which cannot be denied in the midst of this new era of homeschooling. So as such, #1 and 2 have been guided very well with a scheduled timetable and daily online lessons for Maths and English plus a weekly class social. To be honest, #1 and 2 have been very self reliant on organising themselves for homeschooling.
#2 though. Well. I look back on these past 12 weeks and I know my report as a homeschooling teacher would definitely read ‘tries to rush through the work but could improve with more dedication and patience’. I don’t know how long she’s had me hoodwinked but it all began with ‘Mummy, I’ll wear headphones to listen to the instructions on the videos so I don’t disturb your work.’ Brilliant I thought. Little did I know that after ten minutes of school video, the rest of the time she was watching My Little Pony videos.
There will never be a balance between concentrating on my own work and helping #1, 2 and 3 with theirs in the same daylight hours. I am switching between parent, caterer, employee and home teacher all at the same time. This brings multi tasking to a level beyond my ability and that has led to many instances of frustration at a situation that is unreasonable as we try to make it reasonable.
As the weeks have turned into months, we have come to an unspoken agreement that we will try our hand at all given tasks but on some days, things just won’t work out and we will all be ok with that. Instead, on random days perhaps I will finish trying to work a bit earlier and also give myself a break. Enjoy the sunshine when it appears. Take time away from the home.
Home schooling has been brilliant for coming up with quiz questions which I’ve tried out on both my colleagues and friends. As an example:
- How did long did the Trojan War last for?
- Who were the brothers of Zeus?
- What’s the most poisonous animal in the world?
For us, there are only five more weeks of the academic school year left. And these weeks will whizz by, which has been surprising to find out during this time of lockdown, where we thought we would have less activity to occupy our time. It will be a very different kind of end of school year feeling. No Sports Days. No schools shows. No end of school year school Mums outing.
And this year, for #1 coming to the end of his primary school career, there will be none of the usual planned celebrations this would involve. I would have loved knowing what role #1 could have had in the Year 6 Leavers Show, I would be shedding tears at the Year 6 Leavers Assembly and I would be feeling that tug in my heart as we prepare these Year 6 children for high school. But I don’t feel this is as much of a loss as it is for those who should have completed their A-levels or in their final year at University. The end of an era for them is much more significant..
But as you all know, in this ever changing world, just as you get used to one thing, something else happens. And so after 11 weeks and 3 days of homeschooling, #1 returned to proper school last week. The decision whether he would return wasn’t one that came easily as we contemplated a number of factors around enabling the family to StaySafe, and deciding what that means for us. Ultimately the decision was taken jointly with #1, as we all don’t know what this new school life would look like and he is the one we are sending out into the world on his own as the rest of us StayAtHome.
As we walked to school, I realised that not since he was five years old, have I taken just #1 to school on his own. He has been used to walking to school with his friends for over a year and if not there would #2 and 3 alongside him. It is a rare opportunity to have these moments when in our other world, we would be doing more to encourage greater independence. I watched him from over the road as he walked through the gates on his own, I exhaled the nervousness I felt probably more so than him and that was that. By the time I finished chatting to a few parents I hadn’t seen in months and picked up a few groceries, a sound I haven’t heard in a long while could be heard from the direction of school. The sound of children of playing together.
As it turns out, school, no matter how it works, is still school. A familiar place. A place where you know there are rules to be followed respectfully. Perhaps most of all, a place where your friends are. It has never been more apparent to me, the value of an education not just in terms of learning but also for the social richness of having a network of peers around you. No matter how much you try and involve yourself in their world of play, you will never have the time, capacity or interest to dissect their topic of interest to the nth degree. That’s what their friends are for.
I do feel for those parents who don’t have the choice of whether their school aged children can go back to school or not. The thought of five more weeks of school on top of the twelve already past, plus another six or seven weeks of school holidays is enough to weaken the knees of the most ardent optimist inside us all. Whilst initially apprehensive, I am thankful that #1 is back to school, I can see that he will gain a lot from it and doesn’t seem fazed by the new system but has noticed the better quality hand soap and softer, more absorbent hand towels.
It doesn’t give me any more time for my own home working but it does make a difference in easing the relentless demands for food administration and refereeing of home dynamics. As we move into a new school/working week I will no doubt make the same promises of increased productivity whilst home working and lower levels of noise pollution whilst home schooling. Let’s see how long that lasts for.
Just one pair of well worn school shoes are waiting by our front door ready for school tomorrow, I wonder when the other two pairs will join them.